Monday, October 27, 2014

Words for the Week // No.17

I was browsing through Pinterest the other day when I came across the good old "you are exactly where you're supposed to be" quote and something inside me snapped. I just thought to myself: "What a load of crap". Of course, this is not to say that the saying has no meaning, or that believeing that you are here for a reason is wrong. But, at that moment it reminded me of my own struggles. The struggle to take responsibility for my own life, and make hard choices. And, that it really doesn't matter whether I believe I'm supposed to be here or not. The fact is, I am here.

The real question is, what am I going to do about it? How am I going to deal with the here and now. And that's what I'm having a hard time finding answers to. Or rather, I have a fear of answering them, because, what if I get it wrong? What if I make the wrong turn?

Yes, I know, what if I make it right. What if what's waiting is all bliss and happiness. I know that's a possibility. I've said it a hundred times to myself. And yet, there's this fear. It's not constant, but it's there.

And then I realize I've been forgetting about my favorite quote - "If your dreams don't scare you, they're just not big enough." And it hits me. I'm supposed to be scared. It's ok to be paralyzed with fear, because those dreams I'm working towards are so big, and so important to me.

Now, all I have to do is start believing. In me. My abilities. And my dreams.

xo. Hanna

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Sunday, October 26, 2014

Sunday Spirit // A day in Bonn

It's my last day in Leverkusen, before my final 4 weeks in Tallinn. We've made lots of progress setting up our apartment. Basically, we spent all week unpacking things, cleaning, getting stuff aka spending money, and painting. But, to make this week a little bit less work and more fun, we decided to start a new tradition.
Rein has a semester ticket from school which allows him to use all public transportation in the region for free, and with that ticket he can also take one person with him after 7pm and on weekends. Amazing deal, right? So, I had the idea that we should take advantage of this opportunity and visit every city/town in the region during our 4-year period here. I'd love to get to know Germany more, and also the region we live it. Also, it's a good motivator to get our asses off the couch on weekends.
So, yesterday we visited Bonn, the birth town of Beethoven, one of my very favorite composers. We walked in his footsteps visiting his birth house, and church where he worked as an organist, and the Beethoven family's house where he grew up in. It's funny to think how the times change. As we wondered the streets I kept on imagining what it must've been like almost 250 years ago.

And, of course, we also saw the opera house, where, in fact, the Estonian baritone Priit Volmer is working right now. Who knows, living and working in Bonn might be in our future as well.
Our last stop was Starbucks. If you didn't know, then Estonia doesn't have Starbucks. So, this was my first taste of the famous Pumpkin Spice Latte. Oh my, was it delicious! Even Rein, who doesn't drink coffee, said he'd drink that.

I loved our day in Bonn, and I'm sure we'll be back.

In other news, I've been on a search for good German blogs (written in German that is). If you happen to know any, please leave your suggestions in the comments!

Have a wonderful evening!
xo. Hanna

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Saturday, October 25, 2014

Sneak peek into the studio

So, you remember how I told you about having a million ideas I wanted to make happen. Well, here's a sneak peek at one of them.

I've been missing my shop. I really loved the creative side of creating products. Designing, making, dreaming up new photo concepts, photographing, making a lookbook...well, everything really.

Which is why I've decided to release a small accessories line this year, just in time for the holidays. It will include fabric flower brooches in pretty colors made from upcycled fabric, and a selection of clutches from recycled leather and vintage fabrics. All handmade in my little studio space.
The products will be available some time at the end of November. I can only make a limited number of products due to the nature of the materials, so this is going to be a very special limited edition collection.

I'm going to be posting more updates as we get nearer to the launch date, but I'm so excited about this venture. So far, I've loved the process of designing and making these pretty things. I'm equal times inspired and scared right now, but I feel I need to get these babies out of my head and into real products.
I put off doing this for months now, arguing that I was too busy with graduation, and wedding planning, and then my job, and then moving... But, as life has taught me in the last few years, there's never really a perfect time to do things. There's only today. And so I decided that today is as good a day as any to make those little dreams a reality.

Thanks so much for stopping by and stay tuned for more updates in the coming weeks!

xo. Hanna